Whenever I say that the world would be better off without me in it, people’s say, at least everyone who’s close to me say, “Of course it wouldn’t.” and lists off a few reasons why. But I feel like if they actually thought about it, saw what I see in myself, their answer might differ from the default suicide prevention sentence. Half the nights I’m alive are a prime example of this, and also half the days. My existence is sad, I will drag you down, your life will be busy with the worst experiences and I will be the cause of them all. I should kill myself.